The date tomorrow is the 5th.
I have snapped my blades. I have tried to ready myself against the storm. I feel like something will happen to me regardless and I am on edge.
Tomorrow I will say a mantra as I try and ignore the overwhelming pressure that is already starting to build in my head. I will stay away from anything that could cause me harm. I will try my goddamn hardest not to do anything bad to myself at all tomorrow.
I need support and I feel like the crisis team have let me down- I rang them to tell them about what’s happened to me and I have had no answer. I am going to ring again and keep ringing if tomorrow is bad.
I have J and he is keeping his phone on for me so I can get in contact. I have Y, and I have K, and my mum and sister. I just am desperate to not spend tomorrow fighting them off.
Thank you so much for talking to me. I will beat these voices. The dark passenger will not win.